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wish people close to me years ago would accept & understand this completely.

✈ 11 memorable firsts in 2011: 7th - dream tame down


i was serious when i proclaimed that i was craving for a transformation from my 2010 life as i welcomed 2011. in line with this, part of rebooting myself was to attempt bidding farewell to my old bad habits, and that’s exactly what i have successfully achieved.

to summarize my 2010 self, almost half of my annual income just went straight to never ending gimmicks, nonstop parties, and of course, limitless drinking. i wouldn’t call it alcoholism, but i surely stepped a notch higher in terms of my alcohol intake. 2010 was a colorful year in terms of my social life, but i knew that it came to a point wherein it wasn’t healthy anymore. it would felt weird when a day would go by without drinking cocktails or beer or hard drinks, even as low as drinking alone just to “kill time”. there’s a specific restobar that i got so addicted to, simply because i found myself feeling very comfortable with the place and got to meet a lot of new friends. i would go there even after work, during weekdays, just to drink and mingle with different sets of friends. as expected, i even celebrated my birthday party there and since i was a “regular”, the manager gave me such an incredible deal and even threw surprise free drinks for me on that night. it surely was memorable, but one day i just woke up and decided it’s time to change my ways.

like what i’ve been consistently mentioning in my recent “2011” posts, i never really had nor believed in making a new year’s resolution. and since it’s the first time that i ever dared myself to make one, i decided it was timely to challenge myself in taming down as well. and so, even if it was sort of difficult for me to do, i promised that i will not step foot on that restobar again during the whole year. it was difficult at first, and i would even get sarcastic remarks from friends who were close to me and knew of my lifestyle, yet i did it. i actually stayed away from my home away from home, for almost 1 & a half years. and no i did not result to finding a new bar that i would make as a replacement, i simply took the initiative of really controlling my partying and going out every night, most especially my drinking habit.

then there’s another story about smoking cigarettes. since i’ve been traveling a lot whole 2011, i found it very difficult to adjust in most of the rules of hotels and resorts that involved smoking inside the room. admittedly, i wasn’t a heavy smoker, but when there were alcohol involved, my smoking would double. plus i soon realized, i had already developed an uncontrollable habit of smoking whenever i’m in the bathroom, and that’s the #1 thing that i wanted to stop. i became so dependent on smoking inside the bathroom, so i wanted to quit that by starting with my very own. it started only for 4 days, then weeks passed, the next thing i knew i was hitting the one month mark. don’t get me wrong though, my goal wasn’t to quit smoking at all, in fact i even avoided announcing it to the whole world so not to jinx it, but i was able to reach my goal. it took me more than 3 months of being smoke free, but on my birthday i ended up lighting a stick again due to being carried away with the wonderful celebration i was having. no regrets though, i’m not trying to sound defensive or anything, but if there’s one thing i learned is that it makes it so easy to quit, as long as you’re really determined to do it. in fact i got surprised that i didn’t have a hard time, only because i was focused on the goal of stop smoking inside the bathroom. up to this very day, yes it’s unfortunate that i still smoke, but i’m glad that my real mission (to cut my bathroom-dependence) was a huge success. i know in time, when i am fully ready and wholeheartedly prepared, i will decide to quit and it’s gonna be easy. in time. ;)

at present, i still haven’t gone back to my former favorite bar, but it’s also because a blessing came in last year when my sister acquired a bar that’s located very near my house. it would be hypocritical of me to say that i don’t drink a lot anymore, but i’m proud to say that i don’t drink as much as i used to. in fact, now i drink with friends only to entertain them whenever they try out my sister’s bar, without having the intention of getting drunk as a way of ‘escaping problems’ this time. it’s never too late to make changes in your life, and trust me when i say this… the moment you make a firm decision about something that has good intentions, the world conspires in making things fall into place. i’m glad i was able to tame down from my 2010 life. :-)

✈ 11 memorable firsts in 2011: polaWall for the very first time in my entire life, i made a new year’s resolution last 2011: “just say yes!”. it wasn’t actually a resolution but more of a goal. it was plain & simple: reboot myself, step out of my comfort zone, be an entirely different person, & most importantly, fall in love with myself all over again.   i spent most of my growing up years being sheltered & pampered by my environment, namely family members, significant others, friends, relatives, colleagues… the very thing that i feared the most was to do things alone. not that i couldn’t bare to be independent, but i grew up always surrounded with a lot of people, so it’s in my nature to really “share” myself almost all the time. & for the first time ever, i dared myself to start exploring my dreams & begin going for my ‘desires’ alone. no family member to comfort me, no lover to accompany me, & no friend to join me. as much as possible, just me. :)  for 2011 i bought a polaroid & made sure to capture special moments in my life that i did for the first time. here is my photo wall in my room that shows some of the highlights of my year. that’s far from complete, as some of my “first” adventures were taken from my mobile phone. i’ll be sharing the 11 memorable moments as individual posts. stay tuned!
thank you so much, 2011. most especially to february, may, july, september and december, i will always cherish the blissful memories that took place on those months. ✌

✈ 11 memorable firsts in 2011: polaWall


for the very first time in my entire life, i made a new year’s resolution last 2011: “just say yes!”. it wasn’t actually a resolution but more of a goal. it was plain & simple: reboot myself, step out of my comfort zone, be an entirely different person, & most importantly, fall in love with myself all over again.

i spent most of my growing up years being sheltered & pampered by my environment, namely family members, significant others, friends, relatives, colleagues… the very thing that i feared the most was to do things alone. not that i couldn’t bare to be independent, but i grew up always surrounded with a lot of people, so it’s in my nature to really “share” myself almost all the time. & for the first time ever, i dared myself to start exploring my dreams & begin going for my ‘desires’ alone. no family member to comfort me, no lover to accompany me, & no friend to join me. as much as possible, just me. :)

for 2011 i bought a polaroid & made sure to capture special moments in my life that i did for the first time. here is my photo wall in my room that shows some of the highlights of my year. that’s far from complete, as some of my “first” adventures were taken from my mobile phone. i’ll be sharing the 11 memorable moments as individual posts. stay tuned!

thank you so much, 2011. most especially to february, may, july, september and december, i will always cherish the blissful memories that took place on those months. ✌

Just Say Yes

Snow Patrol

last year was katy perry’s teenage dream & last friday night, and now there’s no better song to end the year than my WHOLE 2011 THEME SONG…


Just Say Yes!!! ✌
(another 2011 song is pitbull’s give me everything)



I’m running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won’t be ok and I won’t pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand
Please take my hand, please take my hand

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

It’s so simple and you know it is
You know it is
We can’t be to and fro like this
All our lives
You’re the only way to me
The path is clear
What do I have to say to you
For God’s sake, dear
For God’s sake, dear
For God’s sake, dear
For God’s sake, dear
For God’s sake, dear

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt
This was all I wanted, all I want
It’s all I want
It’s all I want
It’s all I want
It’s all I want

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

let's run away and don't ever look back, don't ever look back! =j