wish people close to me years ago would accept & understand this completely.
i have realized that one of my greatest talents is wearing a mask - i’m good in pretending i don’t care when it actually sends me to the moon, and even better pretending to be okay when deep down i really need to be taken care of.
this is what experiences has molded me to be. ahhh life.
i try my best, i really do.
this song randomly played at the precise moment when i was out of words… couldn’t have heard it at a better time.
hey God, surrendering all to You now… please hug me to sleep. =|
that point starts today. i know this too shall pass… everything will be okay.
they have to be.
✈ 11 memorable firsts in 2011: 6th - dream stress relievers ☑
if there’s one thing that i absolutely hate about me, it’s having the poor ability to do time management. this is probably the main reason why i’m anything but sporty, except when it involves water activities. it’s because of this realization that i decided to make some changes and dare myself yet again. it was only towards the end of the year that i drafted an ideal balanced schedule where i made sure to go back to what i used to do years ago, and even try out something new! i’m a certified insomniac so waking up early just to perform them was enough challenge, not to mention that my work schedule is mostly graveyard shift too. thank God i was successful in doing them all over again.
it’s a fact that i love swimming, but after a long time i finally decided to take it a notch higher by actually swimming in a larger pool, where professional swimmers actually practice and compete. i only used to swim in a small indoor lap pool nearby, but this time i decided to challenge my lungs and broaden my capabilities. i was so happy the first time i ever swam in that new pool, and the next thing i knew i was daring myself even more by increasing my round of lapses as days passed by. i was so thrilled, what kept me going was the fact that i was really doing what i loved best - being underwater! :)
then after a few weeks i tried muay thai again, the last time i did was actually in 2004! haha, such a gross amount of time to take a leave. i was a regular then, training under the philippine team in fact, then i just suddenly and i mean s u d d e n l y quit. the reason? wish i could reveal. of course i felt like dying during my first session, simply because my body was so surprised with the new activity. it was sooo far from my daily routine, but after a few sessions i got to adjust pretty well. then i moved on to bikram yoga. i first tried it 2 years ago and all i could remember was a combination of heaven and hell. hell because you feel dizzy due to the heat (duhhh that’s why it’s called heat yoga ü) but heaven because you feel so incredibly powerful afterwards. it was embarrassing to be a newbie since i was surrounded with people who were extremely flexible, but after around 20 mins or so you’ll find yourself actually going with the flow. and i shall repeat myself, the feeling afterwards is just really rewarding.
and to wrap it up, i’ve only done this once but i take full pride in it: i actually completed running around a whole oval track! as shallow as it may seem, that’s something to be so proud of considering i hate running with a passion! no exaggeration here, but i’d rather do cycling or elliptical trainers than jog/run on a treadmill. it simply bores the life out of me. but because i hated it that much, that became a motivation for me to actually train for around two weeks (it was the most free time i had last november) till finally one day, i got to run (not even walk!) the entire sports stadium. i was such in a high that i took a photo of that day once again, using my polaroid. at least for day in my life, i actually felt like winning in the olympics. ding ding ding! ★ ☆ ★
unfortunately december arrived and it was the busiest of all months in terms of my personal and work commitments. i had no choice but to temporarily take a leave again. i’m saying temporary because one of my new goals this year is to definitely work on my time management as soon as i finalize my balanced schedule (which should be done by end january), and these stress relievers should and will definitely be included in my regular routine. more than the vanity benefits, i have indeed realized the ever classic cliché… health is wealth! ✔
you’ll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.
THANK YOU 2011!!! my first time ever to have & accomplished a year GOAL!!! =j
let's run away and don't ever look back, don't ever look back! =j